Embracing being seen

My heart skipped a beat this morning when I opened my phone and saw that someone I knew had followed the Instagram account I created for this project. OMG what! How did they find it? Should I make my profile private? Immediate discomfort and panic over being “discovered”. What was my deal?

I had noticed this feeling creeping up for some time. I recognised it. Fear. What if this comes to nothing? What if I can’t even keep it up? Fear of failure. What if people who see it hate it? What if no one gets it? Fear of being judged. Who do I think I am building an entire website for myself? Do I have anything valuable to say? Fear of being seen.

I’m choosing to face my fears and embrace them. It’s either that or let them dictate how I live and that I cannot allow. By acknowledging their existence I have control over them. By controlling them, I control my world!